My husband and I have now been married for twelve years. It's a miracle really.
We're not best friends, or "more in love than ever before". But we do love each other unashamedly, and are committed to each other for life.
And that's something.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Connection Failure
I don't connect with people any more.
The one person I long to connect with has built a wall between us, and only allows me on the other side briefly, when it benefits them.
I used to connect with people, but it never turns out well. So I have lost my enthusiasm for trying. The only time it happens is when someone needs something.
I meet needs. That's what I do.
However, that presents a problem when it comes to my relationship with the Lord. He doesn't need anything. He simply desires to be with me. I hardly know what that would be like. It's hard for me to reach out, just for the sake of knowing Him.
The one person I long to connect with has built a wall between us, and only allows me on the other side briefly, when it benefits them.
I used to connect with people, but it never turns out well. So I have lost my enthusiasm for trying. The only time it happens is when someone needs something.
I meet needs. That's what I do.
However, that presents a problem when it comes to my relationship with the Lord. He doesn't need anything. He simply desires to be with me. I hardly know what that would be like. It's hard for me to reach out, just for the sake of knowing Him.
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